I'm a math teacher because God told me that's what he wanted me to do. Believe me, I fought it. I thought of plenty of other things I could do to work and make a difference but I knew what I was "supposed" to do. Finally, I accepted it and I've been doing it now for 6 years. Even though teen-agers bring plenty of challenges (especially mass quantities of other people's teen-agers) I always have peace and comfort because I know this is what God wants me to do.
However, I have another desire. It's to go out into the world and introduce people to Christ. To be His hands and feet! Don't misunderstand me, I'm terrified of it! BUT I totally long to do it. When my kids are older, I want to be financially free (no debt and all that), so that I can use all that time off that teachers get to be on mission for God. Don't get me wrong, with so many kids coming through my door everyday, I know that God can use me in His own way to reach them. I definitely pray that he does. I know I don't measure up and I need to keep working on it. But for some reason the foreign mission field just calls my name. I don't ever see myself not teaching, so I'm not really thinking that a long term mission is calling my name. But I can see multitudes of short term trips. I know that everyday is a gift from God, so I could not even be on this planet long enough to see my children grown but if God leaves me here, I want to make a difference. An eternal difference!
Now to completely turn the topic, in my desire to go on mission trips in the future, I have to pay attention that I'm not missing my role right now. My classroom is a mission field and I must keep that in the front of my mind at all times. I admit, I don't think I do that great of a job. I know I've made a difference for some kids but I'm not on fire like I should be. If you're reading this, please pray that I respond to this calling with more passion and energy! Pray for me to be more focused and dilligent.
